I Remember You, Ama

It makes me emotional every time I hear this. I remember my ama. I want to share what's happening in our lives to him right now. Yohan is hugging me now because I suddenly burst into tears. :( 

Yesterday I got into a small accident. It was rush hour and raining. The car in front of me  suddenly stepped on his brakes, so I did too. But there's a huge space between us so I didn't hit his car. The car behind me though must have hydroplaned and didn't leave enough space like what's he's supposed to do. I heard the sound and felt it when he crashed behind me. I didn't know how to react, he was clearly upset with me. When I pulled over there was no damage to my car. He doesn't have either. I prayed the whole time going to work just thanking God and thinking about ama. How can there not be a damage in my car with that crash? 

I'm just grateful. I told this story to my  coworkers and Yohan too. The difference? Only Yohan asked if I was ok. She said because she loves me. ( Jeff knew I was ok because I talked to him right away). 

P.S. 

Yohan was beside me while typing this and acted like a grammar nazi. Sheesh. She corrected my spelling of "with and cuz" and one other thing. So I changed them. 

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"If You Could See Me Now"

(Oh if you could see me now)

(Oh if you could see me now)

It was February 14 Valentine's Day

The roses came but they took you away

Tattooed on my arm is a charm to disarm all the harm

Gotta keep myself calm but the truth is you're gone

And I'll never get to show you these songs

Dad you should see the tours that I'm on

I see you standing there next to Mom

Both singing along, yeah arm in arm

Now there are days when I'm losing my faith

Because the man wasn't good he was great

He'd say "Music was the home for your pain"

And explain I was young, he would say

Take that rage, put it on a page

Take the page to the stage

Blow the roof off the place

I'm trying to make you proud

Do everything you did

I hope you're up there with God saying "That's my kid!"

[Chorus:]

I still look for your face in the crowd

Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)

Would you stand in disgrace or take a bow

Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)

(Oh if you could see me now)

If you could see me now would you recognize me?

Would you pat me on the back or would you criticize me?

Would you follow every line on my tear-stained face

Put your hand on a heart that was cold

As the day you were taken away?

I know it's been a while but I can see you clear as day

Right now, I wish I could hear you say

I drink too much, and I smoke too much dutch

But if you can't see me now that shit's a must

You used to say I won't know a win till it cost me

Like I won't know real love till I've loved and I've lost it

So if you've lost a sister, someone's lost a mom

And if you've lost a dad then someone's lost a son

And they're all missing out, yeah they're all missing out

So if you get a second to look down on me now

Mom, Dad I'm just missing you now

I still look for your face in the crowd

Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)

Would you stand in disgrace or take a bow

Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)

Oh, oh

Would you call me a saint or a sinner?

Would you love me a loser or winner?

Oh, oh

When I see my face in the mirror

We look so alike that it makes me shiver

I still look for your face in the crowd

Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)

Would you stand in disgrace or take a bow

Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)

Yeah I'm just missing you now

I still look for your face in the crowd

Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)

Would you stand in disgrace or take a bow

Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)

You could see, you could see me now [x2]