Ama

 Gideon asked who the man in the picture when he looked at our Alexa device. 

I said that’s my father. He’s ama. 

Gideon: I’ve never seen him before 

Me: He’s not here anymore. He’s dead. 

Then I burst out crying. 

I looked at Gideon and he had tears in his eyes. 

Me: why are you crying?

Gideon: don’t worry mommy we have a new dad. His name is daddy. 

Then he started giving me his Mother’s Day card. He carressed my head/hair. 

Then a picture of me and Jeff showed in Alexa. 

Gideon: mommy look! You’re happy again! 

Gideon: mommy, I’m still alive! 

Me: yes you are! 

I am comforted that even though my son has never seen ama, he showed me sympathy.  I will always get by during occasional bouts of sadness. 

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Ama was having difficulty opening his right eye. But he tried his best to open it here so we can have a nice picture together. This picture was taken a month before he passed away. ❤️🙏

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Edit: 

Gideon: your father is really really fine 

Me: you can call him ama

Gideon: wait, I can call him? 

(Like in iPad, what he does with lolo and Lola)

Me: no no! I mean, you can call him ama instead of “your father”